Sunday, January 31, 2010

Vocabulary Lesson

It has been so much fun trying to figure out some of F. and H.'s vocabulary...I thought I'd share a lesson....

yayas = boo boos
boo boo = poop
koko(s) = monster(s)
moco = snot / boogers (sorry!)
mote = remote as in remote control
baloo = blue = the color you guess if you have no idea what color something actually is
cared = scared
pilled = spilled

Saturday, January 30, 2010

Answered Prayer

God is so good! The couple I asked for prayer about in the last post would like F. and H. to come live with them and be a part of their family! I am so grateful and excited. We met just mom and dad at McDonalds today and then this evening, Mom and Dad and their four kiddos came over for dinner with us! Tomorrow F., H. and I are off for a visit at their house in the afternoon.

Why in the world do I doubt You, Lord? You always provide! I get all worked up about the short amount of time and the "insurmountable" task of finding the girls the perfect home! But You had this in mind from the beginning! My part in their journey was to keep them from being split into two homes and to give them lots of love in their first weeks away from their grandma, until the W. family could be prepared to welcome the girls into their home and family.

Please be praying for the girls hearts (and Kristi's, Syd's and mine too) as they make this move - it's not going to be easy to say goodbye!

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Prayer Please!

There is a Christian couple that is very interested in doing foster to adopt for F. and H. - I am praying that God would move mountains for the girls and this will work out quickly so that they only have to move once, from my house to their new family's house. That would be so perfect and just like God to work in that way!

Also - got an update on P. who you may remember from earlier posts was considering me to parent her baby girl - or so she thought. She ended up selecting her aunt and uncle to parent. Anyhow, I just heard she had a baby boy. Sadly, her aunt and uncle declined to parent due to the sex of the baby. And it also turns out the baby has heart defects that will require surgery. P. has decided to parent. Please be praying for healing for her baby and for P. as she parents four kiddos.

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Heard Around Our House...

F. is five and H. is 3 1/2 - here are just a few of the things I am hearing around our house...

H. (while playing hide and seek with F. and Syd - it was her turn to count) "1, 2, 3, 8, 18, 8, 9...ready or not here me come!"

F. "Auntie, I go pee"

H. "Auntie, me go pee"

It's quite the announcement around here!

F. or H. while I'm in the bathroom...."Auntie, what are you doing in there?"

H. is still having trouble with calling me Auntie - she really wants to call me mommy, but I keep talking with her about how special her mommy is and it's important to keep that a special name - so she typically says "MamaAuntie" all as one word - it's really very sweet.

We are working on learning colors, animals, numbers, letters all kinds of fun things! At first no matter what color something was I'd here this from H.

Me: "What color is a frog?" pointing to a frog on a page...

H.: "Baloo" (translation: blue)

Thursday, January 14, 2010

A Decision

I have prayerfully made a decision - it isn't an easy one and probably not a popular one, but I have decided that I cannot parent these two little girls on my own. If I could just care for one of the girls it would be a whole different story, but the two of them together is just way more than I can do alone. Their trauma history is significant, their need is so great and I am just one mom. I am sure there are other moms out there that could easily handle this - but I am not the one.
I realize I'm not doing any of this alone - the Lord is my strength! But I also have felt such peace since I made the decision that I know it is the right one.
I've been praying that the Lord would not let me have peace if I made the wrong choice....that if I was just making a decision out of overwhelm or fear the He would make that clear to me through discomfort with my decision (you know, like the kind you have when you know you are supposed to speak to someone you don't want to speak with or you are supposed to say something to someone that you are afraid to say). Well, once I really let myself say out loud that two is just too much for me, the only thing I felt was relief and peace. And it lasted all day long as I continued to pray about it. Even when I told my social worker tonight about my decision I continued to feel peace. She wasn't too thrilled at first and clearly tried to talk me out of deciding after only week, but as she asked me some more questions she seemed to realize that I wasn't just making a snap decision and she became supportive. This was really helpful as well.
They will be staying a few weeks and I am loving being with them and consider it a privilege to minister to them while they are with me.
I am trusting and praying that the Lord has just the perfect home for the girls and just the perfect little girl for my home.

Friday, January 8, 2010

Life is Messy

The girls are in bed - although not asleep. Bedtime is a struggle for them. Which is to be expected - only their third night in a new house.
I need to be brutally honest - I must say I am struggling too. This is a bit more than I anticipated - the emergency move - no preparation in my house - the intensity of the girls neediness given the change and also the depth of the trauma that they have experienced.
I have to admit, I am feeling in over my head in a big way! One moment I am absolutely loving this and the next I am trying to figure out how soon it can end.
They are absolutely adorable girls and also sweet and helpful and they truly want to please - and don't get me wrong, I love reading to them, singing to them, going for a walk today, listening to them giggle, hugs, kisses, teaching them colors and animals - there really are a million good things! But, again to be brutally honest - there are moments throughout the day that I am very uncertain about this. I hope that is to be expected.
Anyone already down this path of taking in high risk siblings - I'd love to hear from you!
And I'd love to hear from you even if you haven't already, but are on the path :)
I'm needing some support and input! So comment away!

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

From Zero to Two in Less Than Four Hours

I probably won't get to post much for awhile! CRAZY day. I was supposed to be traveling to Sioux Falls, SD tonight. About noon today I found out that it was cancelled. About an hour after that I got a call from my agency asking me if I would be able to have the girls move into my house TODAY?
WOW - well with my trip canceled I was able to consider it! Too much to tell, but suffice it to say I am going from being a mom of none to a mom of two - tonight! Well, actually in about thirty minutes!
I must be CRAZY!
Please pray for me!