Saturday, October 17, 2009

At Least Two More Weeks

I wish I could give the details, but the bottom line is that I won't know if the birth mom (P.) has chosen me to parent for at least two more weeks.

Long, heavy sigh...

My friend, Kris, who knows P., says that P. asked her to let me know that she hasn't forgotten me and that she will be making her final decision in fifteen days. I really appreciated the update, even though it wasn't the news I was hoping for. At least it wasn't bad news.

I am praying for P. - praying that she will have clarity and peace as she makes this decision. Praying for her health and the health and development of the baby. Praying for her other children. Praying for the Lord to speak to her about His plans for her life and the baby's.

On my knees....waiting on the Lord. What more can I do?

Friday, October 9, 2009

Sadly, No News

Another Friday with no concrete news. (Insert long, heavy sigh here)
I have to say I was really hoping to have good news today on both adoption fronts - international and domestic - instead it is another Friday of uncertainty.
The birth mom that is considering me did meet with two families this week and she was not impressed, but she has decided to meet with one more before making her decision and apparently there may be a family member that would like to adopt in addition to this family she will meet tomorrow.
As I said in my IA blog - living with uncertainty is exhausting.
I'm trying to remain hopeful and I definitely trust in God's timing. I am also exhausted -physically and emotionally.
I know this will all be worth it someday. I will look back and know that the wait was just a small part of the journey to the family that the Lord intends for me, but right now....well I'm just sad and lonely. (Long, heavy sigh)

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Still Being Considered

I've met with the birth mom I mentioned in my previous post for a second time. Let me just say, I really like her. She is someone I would pick to be a friend.
This second meeting we talked for about 2 1/2 hours - she told me more of her story and I was able to meet her other two children (I met the baby the first time) - watching her interact with her older two children was really precious - she is very kind, but firm. Clearly she adores them.
I should know by the end of next week whether or not she has chosen me to parent.
Lots of them....
Praying for wisdom...
Praying for direction for both of us...
Praying for this little baby girl's health and continued development...
So many things to consider...